My First Semester at Oxnard College

 

   This is my first semester at Oxnard College. I chose to go back to school to better my chances in today’s challenging economy. I have not been to school in years which made me nervous that it might be too challenging and completely different from the years I went to High School. When I was in High School I was a bit of a rebel and never paid attention. I hardly attended, which was constantly getting me and my Mom into trouble.

   The experience so far has been positive. I have learned that I actually can be good at school. Not only has it helped with my self-esteem, it has made me follow through with goals I have set for myself. The only thing that bugs me about college is the pressure I put on myself. I stress out about assignments over and over. When it’s over and turned in I usually receive a grade that I never expected. I wish I could just give myself a little slack sometimes. The challenges I face are juggling being a single mother and attending College. I am setting an example to child that it is never too late to continue your education.

   The workload is sometimes hard to handle, yet I usually find it is because I have procrastinated. I wish that I had more time to spend with my son, but my perfectionist attitude will not let me do less than my best. This requires over working any project that comes in front of me, no matter what subject it is. The ultimate goal of finishing my general education requirements and furthering my education for my family is what keeps me going.

   Staying motivated is not easy. I have worked fifty plus hours a week jobs since my child was a baby. The temptation to skip class and stay in bed is hard to fight. I have to constantly remind myself why I am doing this and the positive changes it will have on our lives. One of the things that helps me stay motivated is I have a picture of a business woman in a court room. The picture has her standing in front of the jury. In my mind she is making her last arguments for the case she is working on. It is in a place where I see it every day.  I hope that will be me someday.